Never is a Promise

GAHH!! i'm agitated. (:

Ahhh it's weird being home.

I don't know.

I'm trying not to be sad right now. It's not working. I really wanted to see the fight.. I think mostly because it's something that me and my dad have... and we can't watch it together, so I figured if we both saw it even though hes in Vegas and im in nyc, we'd be able to talk about it the next day.
And I'm sad for other reasons too, but we should just not get into that ever. Its one of those things I should get over and learn to not expect much of ever.

I SWEARRRRR there are some dipshits who are under the impression that anytime we talk they need to BRAGGGG about their life to me. I don't care!! Seriously good for you but get the fuck over yourself. I swear you are the reason why I've been called 'modest to a fault,' because I looked at you and thought "The minute I become that is the minute I quit life." I really wish you would like... look at the things you say. But hell it probably wouldn't make a difference. Go conquer the world and please, for the love of god, do not tell me about it afterwards.

Tonight I had a wonderful realization.
It was right there all along...
right in front of my face.
SpaceMarket.
Open 24 hours.
Coffee at SpaceMarket.
$1.25.
Me and Starbucks might go on a break.
Starbucks is looking Prettyyy bad right about now.
I'm sorry... how much do you charge for your coffee? $1.90?
And I can never order just that because you burn it and it tastes like crap?
So I usually spend around $4 on your beverages?
Daily?
Yes.
Damnit Alex, you've been wasting money.
Shame on you.
SpaceMarket, I might love you. I fought the love, but I can't anymore.
I still won't eat your buffet food though.
Over my dead body.

Updates!
Before Halloween: me and one of my roommates were accused by our other roommate of stealing her midterms. And her dirty old sneakers and her sweaters and her watch. Yeap. Caught us. I Totally am going to take chem and spanish while am at nyu. PSHHHHH.
Oh and half of the percussion section left (jerks) to go to PASIC in Cleveland. For a week. Yeap. They're not geting back till like 2AM on Sunday.

Halloween!: Fun! The parade was nuts but we couldn't really see anything so I'm over it. A group of french guys defnitely asked me and Becca for a picture (hey we were cats but we were CLOTHED unlike 90% of the female population.) And then someone else asked again. it was kind of weird. Before the festitivites tho.. I locked myself out of the room and went shopping to kill time. I ended up having to get a key from the desk anyway. It was a win/lose situation.

I think that just about covers it. Zarni's coming tomorrow!!!!! yay! eff, i havent seen her since August 26th. yes. true story... :( or tay or holly now that I think about it. Damn.

I fucking hate writing the essay. I don't even know my grade yet for the first essay, but I'm probably going to hate the class that much more when I go to get it. Fuck. I'm stupid. I am so so stupid in that class. I don't think in the right way. I don't think deep enough. I lok too far into the wrong things. F you Lorraine. I hate your class. I hate even more that I have to take a class next semester that's exactly like it. NYU, I hate you right now.

-Alex

I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hour glass
it's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months she finally set him free
I told him I can't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile

Oh, I never meant to brag
But I him where I want him now
Oh, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
But God it just feels so
It just feels so good

Second chance they don't ever matter people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse


The Paramore girl rocks.

People talk about it like it's going to happen. I don't think that's a good thing.
I got pushed in my closet last night and I fell and so did a lot of other things. It was really funny.
I got stuck in the elevator... not like stuck between floors stuck, but my hood was stuck to the little rail thing. It was really funny.
Liquidy substance was spilled on my sheets. I didn't think that was so funny, but it forced me to wash my sheets.
Once I met a man named Morgan. Captain Morgan. We love each other.
hahaha.


I'm going home next weekend and I'm kind of excited kind of not. The trip is a pain in the ass. Ohhh well, hassle hassle. I cant wait for Thanksgivinggg!!!! mmm grandmas food.

List!!!!!!

1) Dan the RA is blasting his club music ... boomboomboomboomboom. the bass beat doesnt change Ever. hehe
2) RAINNNN boo!!! Umbrellas are basically pointless here. It is windy as hell, so it rains downward, upward, sideways, slantways, every which way!! When my umbrella totally breaks and i can't get it to fold right side out, im going to throw a fit in the street (:
3) It got cold all the sudden.
4) Damn that wind...
5) Sometimes I hate the city and then a minute later I love it again.
6) I think a lot of when I hate it is when I'm walking by the stinky ass fish in China town
7) I hate walking through China Town. Those little people just scuffle along and don't understand that some people like to keep a consistant pace (like me. Dear Tay, I still walk big.)
8) Starbucks will make me bandrupt. But sometimes they give me grandes instead of talls (:
9) It's because I'm there everyday. Sometimes twice. Me and Becca are regulars, but I bet a lot of people are.
10) The squirrels in the park are crack squirrels.
11) The pigeons in the park are CRAZY. and scary!!!!
12) I like steel band
13) I hate doing laundry and picking up my room which I have to do like everyday because otherwise i have 0 space. Go figure, since someone else has a hell of a lot more space on the other side of the room than I do. Oh well.
14) My bed here is comfier than my bed at home.. seriously.
15) I get cramps in my legs every single effing night. I don't knwo the last night I didn't wake up w/ cramps in my legs. I eat bananas and I drink water but I still get cramps.
16) I just downloaded songs and some of them could totally be used against me in certain situations. how ironic.
17) I hate doing laundry. and I hate that I have to do it consistently once a week.
18) You know the saying "Don't step on the crack or you'll break your momma's back" ? Ok... if you are wearing heels and you step on a crack, it's totally possible you could break your back. Or any other bone really.
19) Maybe 18 is just me.
20) I think I'm the only percussionist who gets crazy lessons in lesons. Like karate lessons. Oh and a mini manicure. By my teacher. Who is scary if you don't get something. But funny if he's laying into someone else.


Thats allllll.